why dose it feel like this

I hate the fact that I don’t know what to do. He was my best friend for my whole freshmen year of college. I saw him and talked to him everyday he was my world and then some. We tried to date we tried to make it work but he didn’t want that. We left school and he knew he was the hardest thing for me to leave. We didn’t talk until 2 weeks later and he ended the conversation by tweeting that he was taking irrelevant people out of his life and if he didn’t text back to get the message. I got the message and have sadly missed you ever since then. And then you had to call me 3 weeks later and i couldn’t bring myself to pick up the phone I told you I would get back to you. Its now almost 2 weeks since the day you called me and I don’t know if I should texted you or just cut you out now like you did to me so many times already.